It is going get really confusing and childish
Lets Begin
I am pathetic in letter writing so sit tight….
Most of you would find it ridiculously stupid to
write an open letter to self... when the
whole world is writing it to someone who they consider walking blind of actual
reality and less intellectual or moral than themselves. I guess that is the
same reason I wanted to write too… At times I feel "myself" feels same about my
“self”. I believe there is thick line of difference between those two... they
drive us crazy and both of them have a voice which sounds same and they
constantly talk to one another after a while one takes precedence on the other
and determines who you are...Some people see it as the difference between What
you are vs What you wanna be or some may think you are
suffering from DID (Dissociative identity disorder).
As always let me start by saying "its been a while I
wrote something". It seems this thought has become as monotonous as rest
of threads in my life, where i constantly try to understand myself and self
.
Dear Self,
Yes, you can be overwhelmed with that.. Yes, you are the
dearest…. whatever I do… I do to make you happy, I can’t differentiate myself
with you or you with myself. You are my identity or are you my entity… Yes it is as confusing as it
sounds. People I know put you in to
boxes one is being good side and another side being bad. Even I tend to do that
but I don’t label you as good or bad,
right or wrong, generous or selfish and the only reason for that is…. I don’t know which box to label with what,
So I label it with one which written ME
all over it.
· You show me dreams , paint the vision
with colors ,let the horses of wishes run wild and same time you tell
I am being greedy selfish and immoral.
· You generate a feeling of strength,
reasoning to take decision and at times give me guilt for being wrong in some
of them.
· You get happy and sad for same reason.
· You feel content being grounded and then
tell me being nomadic is bliss.
· You get overwhelmed while hugging
people tight and at times you tell me you are suffocating the same.
· You tell me to accept detachment and
then you tell me hold on to those memories.
· You push me in to dark alleys and
enlighten me in those corners of dark alleys.
· You make me feel liberated and then
squeeze me with bindings of society.
So I don’t know what to request you, I understand… sometimes
you have to accept what you don’t to expect
and do what you have do.
Just strike the balance, do your thing and take me to the
light which guides to be what you are
With love...
Your Self..
So that was it, it may sound incomplete and incoherent that
is the state most of us are in
I know for few of you there was no impact but what’s wrong
in embracing yourself.
So….
Embrace yourself for Impact
~SadiQ.